Scott Jenkins

Have you ever heard someone speak to a crowd and just be sitting there and feel that their message was directed solely to you. Well it has happened to me a few times and this morning was one of them. DJ spoke at Horizon Towson this morning and his message really touched me. I realized as he talked how much of my own day to day life I am living still dwelling in the past. I realized how much I still have to learn about grace and forgiveness and friendship. I realized how much insecurity I feel because I still live with this idea that I don’t fit into this amazing group of people at Horizon because of who I was and I don’t live everyday as who I am now. I remember sitting at Caribou a couple days before I got baptized and talking with Joy (the person who baptized me) about what it meant and what would happen. I remember her leading me to a verse from 2nd Corinthians and her telling me that this would be true for my life from then on and that I could let go of who I was for who I was becoming. The verse is 2nd Corinthians 5:17 and it says this, “Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come.” I realized this morning that I still had not fully grasped this amazing gift Christ has given me and that it was time to do so. So in a way I recommitted my life to Him today and am only happy with who I am now and who He will help me to be in the future.

So this afternoon I cleared my schedule and I slept some and then I went to Barnes and Noble and bought a new book. For the first time in a long time I bought a book you won’t find in a Christian book store but it was a book that just came out written by a Christian who also happens to be a person I really admire and wish was the president. His name is John Kasich and the book is entitled “Stand for Something”. As I have begun reading this book tonight and as I dwell on this day all of it seems to have ignited the thing in me that makes me come alive and that is the belief that I can through Christ change this world. That the dreams in my heart are not just dreams but that Christ can and will work through me to make them come true. I believe that I am at Horizon at this time and place for a purpose. I believe all of us there are. I envision a community where we all help each other and trust in Christ to achieve anything He has put on our hearts. I see a new day coming for our communities where all of us love God and each other and where no one feels alone. I dream of a enterprise whose sole purpose is to help enable others to follow after the dreams God has put on their hearts. Basically I believe again and am ready to live confidently again in the realization that anything is possible.

Look I could go on and on right now about a lot of stuff and I’ll be posting more in the near future but I want to end this post with where I am at the end of a really uplifiting day. I know I am not perfect and never have been and I know that the future ahead will not always be easy and will have its challenges but I think it is time for me to trust God and to accept the gift that His son gave me and that is that because of Christ and His sacrifice that I am a new creation. It is time for me to trust Him and to live confidently and secure in Him and in the relationships of the amazing people that He has put in my life.

So to my friends that are sharing in this journey with me let me end by saying this. Let’s dream the impossible dreams together and lets work and follow Christ and trust in Him and I know that they will come true.

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