It’s 2005!
Wow it is 2005! I turn 30 this year! AHHHHHHHH!
I was sick last week and then with the holidays I have had a lot of time to sit back and reflect and pray. I want to be more relaxed and learn to enjoy a lot of the new blessings in my life. I have also realized that I need to refocus on some things and try to find the things that God uses to bring me alive and go and do them. Most importantly I realize how little I really am relying on God and how much I need to work on bringing myself to God and how I need to rely on Him to control my life. I have begun to realize that the biggest things holding me back from being happy and relaxed is that I am trying to handle everything myself instead of allowing Him to just do it. So I guess the one thing I want for 2005 is to draw closer to God and to enjoy Him being my friend.
As for the weekend it was fun. On New Year’s we went to a party then downtown to see the fireworks. It was exciting, also I got to see the Mayor which was neat. However the best part was being there on New Year’s with really good friends.
Then on Saturday I went out to dinner with Dan, Alicia, and Leslie. It was a good time. Later Dan, Alicia, and I just hung out at their apartment talking. It was cool to catch up on the activities of each other over the holidays.
Yesterday I went to church in the morning. Leslie spoke and did a great job! Then I watched the Ravens, hopefully next year they’ll do better. Then Dan, Alicia, and I went to T.G.I. Friday’s for dinner. Joy and Leslie joined us for awhile. I have always had groups in my life that brought me alive and this is the group that does it now. They truly are my inner circle and mean so much to me. I love hanging out with all of them. After dinner Dan, Alicia, and I played Trivia Pursuit (the last 20 years edition). Though I had a big lead on Dan he came roaring back to win. Congratulations Dan! It was fun! Also thanks Dan and Alicia for hanging out this weekend it was a lot of fun.
Anyway I know I have a ways to go to be the person God wants me to be. However I am beginning to realize to relax and be happy in the fact that I don’t have to do it alone, that He will help me and all I have to do is let Him and trust Him to do it.