more blogging
I want to blog more. Yet, when I read other blogs…like Scott’s or Dan’s or Alicia’s I think that what I say has very little meaning or consequence….guess I’ll get over it.
I’m trying to find a more balanced place…always. This is a new season of my life, and I want it to be a season full of growth and full of beauty. I found an old email from Alicia that led me to a web site concerning a monastic approach to rules …making your own rules to cover all different areas of your life, always keeping God at the center. It gave me lots to think about bc I don’t usually like rules…they are made to be broken, don’tchaknow. These rules, however, are more like setting in place baby steps that will lead to the desires of your heart…things that you set up to keep yourself centered and balanced throughout your days.
I’ve begun praying the hours again…at least the morning hours. Each day I think about the afternoon and evening hours, but hardly ever/never make it there. I set up unrealistic schedules of what my day should look like…I will journal, exercise for hours, eat and fix gourmet meals, exercise some more, garden, and spend time with people i love, and…., and…., and….It exhausts me just thinking about it, and I end up being discouraged/disappointed bc I’ll never be that woman, at least not on a daily basis.
So, here we go again….a new start, more realistic, much more simple, with my own malleable guidelines to keep me on that winding road to beautiful, and more blogging.